Stolen Innocence: Triumphing Over a Childhood Broken by Abuse: A Memoir
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Eleven-year-old Erin Merryn's life was transformed on the night she was sexually abused by her cousin, someone she loved and trusted. As the abuse continued, and as she was forced to see her abuser over and over again in social situations, she struggled with self-doubt, panic attacks, nightmares and the weight of whether or not to tell her terrible secret. It wasn't until a traumatic series of events showed her the cost of silence that she chose to speak out-in the process destroying both her family and the last of her innocence.
Through her personal diary, written during the years of her abuse, Erin Merryn shares her journey through pain and confusion to inner strength and, ultimately, forgiveness. Raw, powerful and unflinchingly honest, Stolen Innocence is the inspiring story of one girl's struggle to become a woman, and a bright light on the pain and devastation of abuse.
Stolen Innocence is written with conviction and clarity. [Erin Merryn] doesn't hold back, and I respect her honesty and openness...By the end of the book, I thought I was reading passages from a much older adult than a high school senior. Erin has grown into a strong, wise, intelligent, perceptive, spiritual, caring adult."
--Susan Reedquist, The Children's Advocacy Center
Wisconsin as I write this. I’ve been hurting inside. The feelings of Brian are all over me. Mom has been very concerned about me. She keeps asking me if everything is all right. She has noticed a huge difference in my mood. She asked me this morning if I am sad about something. If only I could tell her the truth. Instead I look her in the face and tell her everything is fine. Today my mom and dad set up the trampoline. It was fun jumping on it. Next week is spring break. My Aunt Mary called for
all the time. It is the only time I feel good. No one understands my pain. I am so sad and feel so lost in this world. Mom sat down with me and told me she wanted me to talk to her about my feelings. I told mom that I wanted to have a healthy relationship with her and tell her about the good things, not the bad. Lately I’ve been having thoughts of ending my life. I feel I don’t belong here anymore. I would be much happier with God than anywhere else. I just couldn’t put my family through that.
that you are trying. Even though I know some things I say you don’t want to hear because it disturbs you. I’d like to know how you got help back when this all came out. Because what disturbs me, and you may admit to this or you may not, is the fact that I did learn over the past five years that you had tried to do this to other girls. I heard it happened in Wisconsin to one of the girls up there and maybe it did and maybe you can admit to it and regret it. I also heard on the bus last year that
feel I can never be myself when he is around. I feel trapped inside. I am very proud of myself for all the progress I have made since January. I have accomplished a lot. My biggest accomplishment will come in October when I do the Chicago Marathon for the Children’s Advocacy Center. I have raised over seven hundred dollars by getting people to sponsor me. Getting people to sponsor me is the easy part. Doing the marathon will be the challenge. Well, I am going for a night swim at the lake with
over I asked him to please stop. I was terrified and couldn’t believe what was happening to me. His hands slipping down my pants and up my shirt. His heart pounding against mine. We then heard David opening the door to the storage area. Brian told me to get quiet. I wanted to scream, but didn’t want David to see anything even though it was extremely dark. I don’t think David would be able to understand nor see what was happening. I heard David turn around and make his way back upstairs while